Lately I've really been struggling with figuring out what I like to make, finding my own style, the colours I like to work with, the tools I feel most comfortable with. I wanted to pick up blogging again because it was something that I really enjoyed in the past. It made sense to me to start blogging about painting and drawing and pattern design because my favourite blogs are the ones where you get to see into someone's studio.
I especially love to follow along with daily drawing and painting challenges because there's something so cool about watching someone's creative struggles and their progression. But let me tell you, sharing things that aren't 'perfect' and that you aren't totally proud of is really, really hard. Like way harder than I thought. So when I decided to start up this blog again and I had a plan all mapped out, I totally froze.
Everything I made wasn't good enough to go on the blog or on Instagram. I found it much more difficult than I was expecting to show my not-so-great work. Even though that's something I really like to see in other artists! I like to see the off days just as much as the on days. It's about documenting the hard work that normally nobody sees. And to me that's really what making stuff is all about. Slogging through those days where you just don't feel like it and every paint stroke or line is a struggle. When you stare at a blank page so long that you scribble something just so it stops staring back at you. That's where the magic happens and where the inspiration for your good days will come from.
So in the spirit of that, here's a painting I worked on the other day. I don't love it. I don't hate it. But it's a step in my creative journey so I'm glad I made it. Now grab a piece of paper and make something! Even if it sucks. Even if you know it will suck. In fact, I hope you hate it. Because there are lessons to be learned from making something crappy. Make some crap today!